"i figured out whatt i needed"

i learnedd..

that he wasnt the one...that we were never meantt to be...that a boy cant complete me. and that i am a beautiful girl...andd iff a BOY cant realize that thann maybe itss not my time:)...maybee its not my time to find love, my soul-mate, the one for mee.

i feel likee im the one never choosen...im the onee never seen ass the girlfriendd...moree like the "girlfriend's" friendd..and it hurtss. it hurts because i dont understand what i dontt havee that SHE does...

i will look in the mirror and see this ugly girll that no BOY will ever want...but today, noo not today...noww i see ann amazing girl...that has jus not found what she isss looking for :(

i sit heree and question my "beauty" everyday...
*why isnt my hair longer?
*why do i have to have braces? --->[butt i dont wear them anymore]
*whyy i have to wear glasses?
*whyy my body is perfect?...the way i want it...

i wanted to be flawless. and i hated myself for itt...i hated my friends for being what i wasnt...when i stood by them my body raged with envy from head to toe...they were the ones being "checked out" by boyss...NOT ME...

whyy not me?