i love him

i love him, its justttt that thing he does
why i love him, i dont know
we fuss we scream, we cuss
its a mess but then i stop and say
i love you
his sudden reassurence starts with an "i love you too"
i smile
he wonders, what is wrong with me
instead of asking me, he lets it sweep to the back of his mind
because he knows, my insecurities with relationships, could terminate our love
he fights his thoughts and his true concerns for me
he lets me win the battles
butttt for what..........
because he knows after every argument and every scream a love you will emerge with hopeless joy that brings nothing but happiness to me
maybe not to him, but he knows his sudden reassurance starts with "i love you too"
then i stop and sayyy
i know you do

images.

i look in the mirror and cry
i never understand why i feel so hopeless, like someone pointing a gun to your head saying"you're about to die"
what does it take to "beautiful"
what is that image
is it short, tall, light, dark, small, big WHAT
my mind has formed around images, never none of my own
my mind is nothing but images, some i never can be or know
why the images?
why i hurt myself trying to be something im not,
why cry?
why o why, are there so many images?
see i will never find my own because.......
these images ARE ME.
i am short and big and dark...i AM what i see
these images are me
so take me as i am, for theres nothing i can do but look in the mirror, wipe away my tears and fears and say
i am this IMAGE, now LOVE ME

music(:

sooo basically i have a deep dark secret...

shhhh
you cant sayyy anything lol


i loveee music lol

music is my passion...i write all the time i just wasnt really serious about the whole thing...but i realized that immm actually really talented...maybe you will see me one day on the big screen lol buttt for nowww look for my name(:

well see ya later,
finna writeee heehee(:

12-12-09(:

ohh my goshh todayy was a good dayy
blahhhh(: i wish it could happen all over again(:

so basically i went to the mall with myy boo(: omg i loveee him...that was so muchh fun(:

...playing dance dance revolution in the arcade haha(:

mannnn(:

cant you see

he means the world to me
i hope he knows that
i care about him, but its so hard to show that

i dont fall in love easily
'cuss im afraid to get hurt
please understand babe, i love you

i love that thing you do, its nothing really, but that little giggle and that small wave
ohh goshh...it fills my heart so quickly

i dont fall in love easily
'cus im afraid to get hurt
please understand babe, i love you

we dont do what others do
we love like no other
they ask why not kiss, because we dont need to
our love is stronger than touch
stronger than a kiss
its more...
its the hold
the strength
the depth
we are so far in...
itss imposible to come up

he has my heart..wrapped in his hands, tucked away, deep in him
he has my heart...and it is his...i am empty...

he has it all
and I KNOW he wont break it

he knows...

im so deeply in love with you, oh yess(:

lovee the music.

i love to dance
i love the rhythm pumping in my heart
i love the music
the lyrics of love
i love the beat
as it flows through me...
i love the echo, to where my voice cant compare
i love the harmony
i love the tempo
i love it
oh do i love it
its so easy to love music
...so why cant i love you that way?

thiss fwend

soo i have this fwend
and i love her dearly
but she makess so many mistakess, i wonder if she can see things clearly
she has my heart
and i have hers
but damn idk how muchh pain she can keep causingg
i wonder if she knows, how much i care
and how much i think her love is soo sincere
but how can we build our love, if she keeps that wall
of mistakes, and heartache, that all those boys cause
the boys
they hurt, and she knows that so well
but why does she keep goin back just to get hit again
the mistakes, they get higher
and soon idk if i can see her anymore, because her wall gets bigger
and it seems like im gettin shorter
and all i can say is, love me, before you love "them"
love who sees you for you
not the once who just want your body or like your face
love me
because you are MY bestfriend
and that wont change
but boys.........
they alwaysss fade away