i love him

i love him, its justttt that thing he does
why i love him, i dont know
we fuss we scream, we cuss
its a mess but then i stop and say
i love you
his sudden reassurence starts with an "i love you too"
i smile
he wonders, what is wrong with me
instead of asking me, he lets it sweep to the back of his mind
because he knows, my insecurities with relationships, could terminate our love
he fights his thoughts and his true concerns for me
he lets me win the battles
butttt for what..........
because he knows after every argument and every scream a love you will emerge with hopeless joy that brings nothing but happiness to me
maybe not to him, but he knows his sudden reassurance starts with "i love you too"
then i stop and sayyy
i know you do

images.

i look in the mirror and cry
i never understand why i feel so hopeless, like someone pointing a gun to your head saying"you're about to die"
what does it take to "beautiful"
what is that image
is it short, tall, light, dark, small, big WHAT
my mind has formed around images, never none of my own
my mind is nothing but images, some i never can be or know
why the images?
why i hurt myself trying to be something im not,
why cry?
why o why, are there so many images?
see i will never find my own because.......
these images ARE ME.
i am short and big and dark...i AM what i see
these images are me
so take me as i am, for theres nothing i can do but look in the mirror, wipe away my tears and fears and say
i am this IMAGE, now LOVE ME

music(:

sooo basically i have a deep dark secret...

shhhh
you cant sayyy anything lol


i loveee music lol

music is my passion...i write all the time i just wasnt really serious about the whole thing...but i realized that immm actually really talented...maybe you will see me one day on the big screen lol buttt for nowww look for my name(:

well see ya later,
finna writeee heehee(: